寂寞

四月， 是个美丽的月份， 充满着欢愉的气氛，接受很多很多的祝福，得到很多很多人的陪伴。。。
四月， 也是个悲伤的月份， 充满着离别的悲伤， 接受了要分开的事实，得到了很多很多的感叹。。。

分开，有多过一个月了。一开始，每天还是在意你的那句“ 早安,亲爱的！”压抑着自己思念你的情绪，冷漠的回答你，有时还拿忙碌当借口，不回应你，亲爱的，其实我再忙也放不下你啊。。。

心里却多么渴望收到你的信息，听到你的声音。有想我吗？ 看你渐渐离去的身影，我已不能肯定我对你的重要性。。。

到你和我说你辞职了。。。要离开我的身边了，不再是说分开却还能时时联络了的人了。我知道，我们的关系真正要结束了。。。做的很好，亲爱的！ 就是要这样，我才可以真正放下你啊。

上个星期，我病了，医生让我在家睡了两天，之后回到公司，堆积如山的工作让我无法呼吸；排得密密麻麻的行程，填满我的每一秒钟。我不可能还有闲空想你。。我不可能。。。

但如果不是想你，我又为何在这一秒感到如此的寂寞？

我的思路，变得无章，乱七八糟。。。
我的文字，变得无理，难以理解。。。
我的心房，变得空洞。。。

我想你真的不会想我了。。。不然怎么可以五天都不找我。。。。原来我只是因为你五天来的冷漠而感到寂寞

可笑的我。。。。亲爱的，我自己都快要无法承受自己这样下去了

喜欢的原因

记得有一天，我问你喜欢我什么？
你是这样说的

“好吧对你说实话吧
我都不知道我具体喜欢你什么，我只知道，和你在一起的时间是过得最快的，每天都会不自觉的想起你，脑袋里，全是你的影子！喜欢听你说话，喜欢在一起的感觉 喜欢你什么都听我哒，喜欢你的一切！包括你的优点和缺点”


我没有和你说过喜欢你
当然不会告诉你喜欢你的原因

我喜欢你能逗我笑，喜欢你在我想说话是静静聆听，在我不想说话时说话给我听。喜欢你可以包容我的坏脾气，喜欢你能喜欢我的不温柔。喜欢你在我做错事时，轻声地说，没事，有我在。喜欢你因为要陪我每个星期都不出门。

我想起第一次遇见你，我没给你好脸色，语气也很不好，可是你还是用很好的态度对我。
你说因为认识我才知道什么叫思念， 你说让我开心是你每天重要的任务，如果我不能开心， 你就要和我一起难过。 你说。。。。

你说的太多。。。


分开的第四天，你问我这么快就学会独立吗？ 我说在学。
你打来，我还是接了，因为太想念你，因为想听听你的声音。
你不发一语，我一样的没好气的问，怎么打来不发一语？ 找我有事吗？
你说，只是想听听我的声音。。。

现在的我没办法不想你，只能试着不找你。
亲爱的，可能这并不是爱情，我们只是依恋对方而已。
有一天我们都会习惯没有彼此的生活，或是有别的人代替彼此在心目中的地位。。。
我只有相信没有什么是过不去的。。

MC

i went to see doctor this afternoon,around 1pm, the clinic door sticked a paper written " Open 2:30pm" and the 3 nurse were sleeping at the Sofa, i knocked the door. Asking them to let me in cos i feel really unwell.And so, i sleep with them on the Sofa.


2.30pm, doctor came, i told doctor my heartache, cant breath easily, whole body pain, feel wan to vomit. after he check everything, he gave me pill to sleep. he said is my heart problem. i need rest. i stared at him and asked," really? so i don't have any problem?" He said.. just stress. Before i leave his room, he said, girl, you are charming, don't let a guy who leave you control your emotion. Seems like he saw something from my eye. i smiled at him (instead of cry) and said " Thank You! you are so sweet" and leave the room with MC.


Today is the 3rd day.i only cried once, the rest of time i keep thinking about him. i miss his voice, his face and his everything. Although i knew we will apart in the future, but never imagine this will come so fast. i still very depending on him somehow. God, give me brave to face the life without him, or send me some better man to replace him ba...

Lets start from here....

Let's Start From Here - 王若琳



Giving up, why should I
we've come to far to forget
we're beautiful, we just got lost
somewhere along the way
so much was missing when you went away

Let's start from here, lose the past
change our minds, we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here

standing here face to face
a finger on your lips
don't say a word don't make a sound
silence surrounds us now
even when you were gone I felt you everywhere

Let's start from here, lose the past
change our minds, we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

I've never been the one to open up
but you've always been the voive within
the only warmth from my cold heart

Let's start from here, lose the past
change our minds, we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises
Let's start from here, lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

working me

just view my blog, gosh, my last title is "Life b4 graduate is all about gathering"! lolz, and now, i had graduated around 4 months! wow...4 months...! i spend around 1 n half months for job hunting, working for more than 2 months d. For those who keep viewing my blog, i m so sorry to let u down. I guess is time to let me update my blog!!!

b4 graduated, i was thinking what should i do after graduate? Taking Master or Working? MMU offer a free master Course, it is a great opportunity! I ll be a master degree holder just after one year! and all i need to pay is few thousands and my hard work. my dad was encouraged me to do that. he said he was willing to support me for one more year...just because his words, i decided to working! yes, is not typo, i decided to find a job after grad. my poor dad was supporting me Unconditionally for around 24 years. n honestly, i m been a bad gal as i was spending money like water during my uni's life. i found my parents look older when i came home, i m the eldest child in my family, and i had been so selfish for those pass time.i told myself, lets stop here.

so i start job hunting, at 1st, it was really siok, stay at home and went to cyber cafe to surf net(i stress for FYP very long d). Jobstreet everyday...after two weeks without any call, i started worrying, really can feel that is not easy to find job. so i start simply find job,apply as many as i can, this cause me feel damn regret when they offerer me interview. i don feel wan to do that kind of job at all. the feeling is weird...n i hope i wont get this kind of feeling again...dou dou zuan zuan, finally, i found my job now. QA engineer in a resistor manufacture company!

Owh, nearly forgot to tell where my work place located, is SENAI...wuhuhu...this is the place where i belong,the place i grew up, the place which my best friends stay. IＬＯＶＥ MY LIFE NOW!!! everything is great, love my job scope, love my family, love my friends! i watch movie often, lim teh v friends often, watch my favorite korea drama often! the only thing need to improve is my income! HAHAHA..anyway, i still wan to thanks god for giving me all of this..i love u god...muaks

*~Pictures~*Life b4 graduate is all about gathering

Life b4 graduate is all about gathering

To do List

its been 4 days, i stay room and relax the feeling is great!wake up naturally everyday..finally pass my final year presentation..everything wasn't that smooth in this year, but i do believe is God want steel me...anyway, i noe there is alot of things is waiting me to do now and later...Here is my to do list

final edit of my thesis
cele Marilyn' birthday
do hardcopy of thesis
final year housemate gathering
MMU friends's gathering
Ex college gathering
ex roommate gathering
advance microprocessor final
opto electronic final
pack thing
dad come n help me move back to JB
go cut my hair( really out of shape d)
go cut my eyebrow
throw away my 100sth magazines( out of space)
go my 1st interview
do passport
buy some new cloths for bangkok trip( terrible thinking)
hometown friend gathering
preparation for Bangkok trip
go KL meet my friend,,,
see my dentist at KL
yeah..go bangkok
cele siaw hui birthday
and i hope after tat, i can found job , n start to working b4 july

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Complete of this final year project would never be possible without the help and encouragement from various group of people.

My project supervisor, Mr Lim Tian Sze has morally supported me throughout this hard period; he taught me the correct attitude that I should have when facing problems in this project. And I know this attitude is not only useful in engineering field’s activities but in all aspects of our daily life.

My Industrial Training program supervisor, the head of R&D electronic line, Mr Chir Kai Chang who has allowed me to do my final year project during ITP. He has been patient and helpful to guide me step by step until finish designing the protocol. I do not only learn a lot of knowledge from him, but also strengthen my skill and knowledge in this field.

MMU lecture, Mr Muhammad Muslim Mansor who has providing me a lot of valuable information during designing state of this project.

I’m also indebted to this project’s moderator, MS. Kwek Lee Chung who aided me by her inquisitive during the first part presentation.

A special note of thanks also goes to my friends Mr. Er Tsaur Jzi, Mr. Chong Sze Siang, Mr. Chua Tze An, Mr. David Lee, Ms Marilyn and Ms Wong Xiao Chyi who helped and morally supported me throughout this hard period. Without their support, my project can hardly achieve a success.

Lastly, my family, their love encouragements were the main force driving me on whenever I felt tat time is ruining low. Thank you.

I m discharge

Finally, i m discharge from Pantai Hospital after staying there for 3 says, everything is good, so do not worry. B4 this, when i was sick for more than 1 week, i feel tired all the time, and cant wake up on the rite time everyday. but during the 3 days i stayed at hospital, i sleep till wan vomit. the feeling is so bad, i donnoe how to describe, maybe i stay alone there, the feeling really bad. the patien stay bside me is really sick, n makes me feel not comfortable somemore. i really don wish to stay at hospital anymore!!!!! today morning still can sense the bad feeling when i was waking up. I m really homesick now...really homesick........oh god ...bad feeling faster go away.
heard from my sis that grandmum is not feeling well recently, is has been around 4 months i nv see her, i m miss her badly. i m really a bad grandchild, not at her side all the time,god, pls bless her all the time. i must go home next week...must..

SICK

Is been more than a week...i m sick...fever on n off, everytime i tot recover d, it fever again.went to see doctor 3 times d, last nite still fever..haiz...during this whole week, i cant do anything when everyone is rushing their fyp report. i feel very very tired, and sleepy all the time!!(i sleep around 20 hours per day... ) i don wan to keep on like this, so i decide to go pantai hospital to check up later. they might ask me to stay overnite, abit gan jiong..1st time stay overnite at hospital. hope i can recover asap. friends, feel free, do come n visit me..lolz

the furthest distance in the world

the furthest distance in the world
is not between life and death
but when i stand in front of you
yet you don't know that
i love you

the furthest distance in the world
is not when i stand in front of you
yet you can't see my love
but when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
yet cannot be togehter

the furthest distance in the world
is not being apart while being in love
but when plainly can not resist the yearning
yet pretending
you have never been in my heart

the furthest distance in the world
but using one's indifferent heart
to dig an uncrossable river
for the one who loves you

Tired

1.25am now..i m damn tired but yet don wan to sleep, just pass my last sem 1st midterm..feel like so empty now..a lots of things to do..a lot ...really a lot..i m just like lost in the world that is full of works...i tot i m alone, but i guess i was wrong. the donnoe wat to do boy (poingee) just come n complain that he donnoe wat to do..he got same feeling too and so do yassin and lilo..haiz..final sem students...
i used to plan tat my last sem is as relaxing as possible one..mana tahu..bcome like this...i really too tired now, i need to sleep now ..but the opto notes still occupied my bed....

感恩

my mum posted a poster on the wall of her office which include the sentences below when i was a young. For most the concept that i dint understand well, my mum used to say: "u will noe someday".


感恩曾经让我失望的人，让我学习如何站起来。
感恩曾经让我生气的人，让我学习宽宏大量。
感恩曾经利用我的人，让我懂得我还有替别人做事的能力。
感恩曾经讨厌我的人，让我懂得我在他心目中，还扮演着蛮重要的角色。
感恩曾经伤害我的人，让我从中长大了。
感恩所有曾经爱我的人，让我知道什么叫作幸福。

Stress

this few day i really stress...since sze siang said: u noe, now oredy week 5, 5 more weeks we need to pass up our fyp, wat u had done?..so scare now..tired..and feel abit worry ...haiz, in this world, nothing come easyly.always meet problem! i hate problems...last nite brother Gim send email to me, kinda warm after reading


Haha hoho hihi

Remember to smile whenever stress is overwhelming.
What you see and feel of this world are all what you think about it.
Happy ppl are the successful ones who only think of good things of this world.

Jim, 02 March 2009


thanks brother, i will try to smile de..

two movies in my list to watch

客家酿豆腐

today went eat 客家酿豆腐 with xiao chyi and shin tat, i asked her why feel wan to eat 客家酿豆腐 de ,when i get into shin tat's car , and she answer:" cos u wish to eat"... Oh god, i m damn touching at tat moment! Thank you xiao chyi , u really r a sweet friend! my friend said i miss 酿豆腐 because i m homesick, he is correct, i m kinda homesick now. but i cant go home, cant go home, cant go home.............i need to concentrate on my fyp, too many things have to rush up, now i even donnoe i can go home for my birthday ornot. 酿豆腐 reminds me about my grandmum and my mum. abit sad when thinking all this staff, i noe i m too emotional...just try don think too much! jia you..

第一次的亲密接触

click the picture above to read the story
i had finish reading this books four years ago, with tears...

this part remain in my memory for quite a long time


“如果我还有一天寿命，那天我要做你女友。
　　　我还有一天的命吗？..没有。
　　　所以，很可惜。我今生仍然不是你的女友。
　　　如果我有翅膀，我要从天堂飞下来看你。
　　　我有翅膀吗？..没有。
　　　所以，很遗憾。我从此无法再看到你。
　　　如果把整个浴缸的水倒出，也浇不熄我对你爱情的火 。
　　　整个浴缸的水全部倒得出吗？..可以。
　　　所以，是的。我爱你...
　　　起舞飞扬”

i noe, she really love him at the moment

BUSY

very 1st, i would like to thanks god, after too many difficulties, my best friend's son "niu zai" (call him niu zai cos hope him got "niu jing" can fight the illness) finally gone tru his operation, and doctor said tat everything is good now!!!! recently "niu zai" brought alot of tears to his family and even me, i hope this is will be the end of tragedy oto his parent still need to worried about the medical expenses ( whoever saw their news at New strait Time hope u all can help them, thanks alot )

this week is a very busy for me, lab(fyp)-->class-->lab(fyp)-->meet sv(tien sze)-->class...keep repeating, but i cant see any progress of my fyp cos i cant get the result wanted. feel kinda tired, i most hate troubleshooting!!!! haiz...too many things to do, too litter time, last nite xiao chyi's friend come from kl, so we brough him to eat satay celup, now hv to print notes and study b4 class, then go lab see technition succesfully setup the programmer d onot, then need to see mr muslim at 2.30pm, advandce micro p class at 3.30pm( i m alone at tat class), tomorro( valentine day without valentine) my best friend jie ling come melaka n find me, need to bring them go walk around melaka (any nice place sugguest?) . at nite need to meet aki and hv a "single yum" nite...wine is the best friend of those lonely ppl like us..haha!! next wednesday maybe will hv gathering v those "tun"! industrial training presentation start from 18th! friday i will go kl find my third ex roomate! i noe, i gonna busy till the end of my campus life. some of my friends oredy start send resume to apply job(n i hvn take photo yet) , even part of them hv the interview d. what the hell i m waiting for? haiz..but i don think i m ready for it..how? scare lei..haiz........................

Stay Cool

the day b4 yesterday, i finally went n see Tien Sze ge ( my fyp supervisor) , again, he din give me any technical support about my fyp alto i request it. But he told me i had changed alot since i took his this title. And ask me ever regret to take this title? b4 i answer, he said:" i guess no, cos u learn alot of things compare to most of ur friends out there!" lolz...if he let me answer, i guess i got two anwer, 1st is if i nv training at trw and meet my boss, then i will regret to take this title cos i noe i ll nv make it. second is now, tell u wat, i wont regret alto i had experience alot of stress. Beside that, he also asked me to always stay "cool" lolz, he keep repeat "cool" and asked me understand what he mean ornot! Tien sze, i sure noe what u mean la, u wan me calm down la! he said i always lack of confidence, then feel lost when meet problem! he is correct, i also found tat i had this weakness, i always cant stay cool, and zoom out to see wat is the problem from far!! this make me always lost my way not only when i was driving but most aspects in my life. even tien sze can found my weakness, means tat, my weakness is too obvious...so i decide to add one more section in my 2009 new year'plan, STAY COOL....

daddy told me they went to "查家杂" ( checking our family luck in this ox year) tat day( we went to check every year n it is very accurate) , all of my family members hv good luck for the whole year except me...i will "犯小人(will meet alot of bad guy)" from the begining to the end of the year.........omg...i m so sad to noe that, 小人们pls stay away from me ok? pls pls pls, we jin sui bu fan he sui! anyway, life goes on no matter wat happen. all i can do is ready to the worse!!!

元宵快乐

today is the last day of CNY, we so called Yuan Xiao, is a day of reunion, and also chiness valentine day. plan to go eat zai with xiao chyi this afternoon, and hv a reunion dinner with my sis and 3 cousins here. ya, we hv 5 family members study at mmu here! actually i decide to start eat zai every 1st and 15th from this new year, 1st hope can collect some forture for my dearest siaw hui's son, hope him can grow up healthly, don make his parent so worry. second is wan to reduce my sin!(don ask me wat i done wrong, i also donnoe, just feel tat, we all are human being, sure will make sin) ... so friend, u r welcome to join me eat zai every chu yi shi wu a.
as we always noe, plan nv can match with changes, my parent called me last nite and inform tat they will be coming melaka for reunion today. i feel happy but yet kinda worry, wat makes them decide to come? i been study at melaka for 4 and half years, they nv do like this. i do believe human wont changes with no reason...wondering.............Ok...maybe i m think too much d. need to prepare d, i guess my parent will reach here soon, take care my friends, wish u all hv a warm yuan xiao...god bless...

《游龙戏凤》

今天下午和惠珍家敏去看了《游龙戏凤》， 主演的是我最爱的刘德华，剧情你们可以参考官方网站http://youlongxifeng.ent.sina.com.cn/
after watched , i found tat i had fall in love with 张涵予, so gentle, so brave . And start to think if i m 何韵诗, wat will i do when falling in love with a different level men. i don really have the ideal, or maybe i just hvn meet the right men who will let me give up and don care everything. Valentine day is coming soon, wish all of the couples 有情人终成眷属。。。

movie plan to watch:
画皮
赤壁
幸福万岁
shopaholic

anyone interested can contact me, we can go watch together..hehe

Beyonce -I Am Sasha Fierce

Finally Beyonce release her brand new album "I Am Sasha Fierce"!!! beside the song "If i were a boy", "AVE MARIA" is my favorite song in the album. sometime i think the feel towards music is very subjective, so i got no intention to promote her songs here oto i m her "big fans", just like to share this song to all of my friends..may u all have a great weekend..God bless...

Emo agian

lolz, sometime i also feel pai sei to tell tat i m emo again. emo emo emo...life like a cycle, always repeat the same thing over and over again...as i promise myself in the 2009 new year's plan, i wan to quit shopping as it was my favarouit hobby, but really cant resist it when marilyn ask me out. gosh...sometime i really cant deny tat friends are really can influnce me. while everybody is busy with their ITP report( today is the due date) i m sitting here doing nothing.( i done my report on the last day of my ITP, thanks boss!) everyone is so busy, makes no ppl free to choi me,eeeeeeeeee......... i feel so lonely in this moment, suddenly miss the life of training, atleast i got laily, atleast i can learn new things, atleast i can talk v david and atleast i can get scold by my boss. life at here is too boring, as i only took two subjects this sem, and only one is same class with my friends, how can i stand the lonelyness? i noe actually the free time is for me to study and doing fyp, but ...but...but...haiz...timetable also done d, y i cant just follow it? few of series waiting me to wacth but i noe i should stop to get drama from my friends,maybe brough a 160Gb new hardisk is not a very brilliant ideal , god, pls help me...give me "FIRE" to follow my plan. else, i ll be the same old me again...still remember one of the lecturer in the ESRS class said tat, try to smile, even when u r not happy, because when pretent to be happy, u will be happy at last!!! does it really true? and as i noe from the “论语心得“ she said, we should enjoy the loneliness, only loneliness can give us a space to see clearly who we r, what we want, and which is good. all of these theory telling me tat god had send me a great chance to learn, but i m really moody to face this situation. just now sze siang gave me the Jam tart he brought me from home, i guess he wan to thanks me for printing report for him, but i rather believe as he said he specially brought for me...lolz!!!! sometime friendship really cant stand if we always calculate, when if the friendship still stand strong after u calculated, then u better cherish it. Friends are easy to make, good friends are hard to find and the best friends is the gift of heaven. suddenly i feel i m not tat moody d as i wrote till here, thanks god to sending me gifts, alto is not many, but i m grateful tat i hv the gift, y i always so negative lei? i got my best friends , those so caring me, y i still care of the small lonelyness at here ....hahaha
really stupid molly... yeah...i have to cheer up...i have to be happy!!!!!
don forget to mention tat this week i just meet two long lost friends at friendster, and i cant believe that is them regconise 1st. Y i cant believe lei? if u r me, then u will feel the same way when most of my secondary friends cant regcon me at shopping mall. M i really change alot? lolz
i m so happy can meet them in my life again, one of them is my softball coach during secondary school, and the other is my classmate during form 2 or form 3. i nearly forget i been joining softball team b4, lots of memory suddenly spring up, its been 10 years ago. i wonder y my coach still can remember me, but he said i gave him lots of memory. i nv tot that i will gave others alot of memory in my life even for the one i used to love and who used to love me( oto he gave me alot of memory). after talking v them, i found out i had miss alot of ppl in my life, so i decide to go KL find my friends to prevent our relationship lost. maybe i need to be more ative to maintain my relationship with friend.. omg...oredy 3.10pm....3.30 i got class...hvn take bath yet..anyway i m happier now...thanks for ur ears...take care

Sex and the city

last nite finally watched movie " Sex and The City". For those never watch, below is the summary of the movie. For me, this is a good movie, at least it touched my heart and steep in the mood untill now. I m falling in love with the song "Auld lang syne" in the movie. (attached) hope u will like it too...

After moving in together in an impossibly beautiful New York apartment, Carrie Bradshaw and Mr. Big make a rather arbitrary decision to get married. The wedding itself proves to be anything but a hasty affair--the guest list quickly blooms from 75 to 200 guests, and Carrie's simple, label-less wedding gown gives way to an enormous creation that makes her look like a gigantic cream puff. An upcoming photo spread in Vogue puts the event--which will take place at the New York Public Library--squarely in the public eye. Meanwhile, Carrie's girlfriends--Samantha, the sexpot; Charlotte, the sweet naïf; and Miranda, the rigid perfectionist--could not be happier. At least, they couldn't be happier for Carrie. Charlotte still has the unrealized hope of getting pregnant. Samantha is finding a loving, committed relationship more grueling than she could have imagined. Miranda unwittingly lets her own unhappiness--created when Steve admits to cheating on her just once--spoil Carrie's. After a heated encounter with Steve, she happens to spot Mr. Big and tells him he's crazy to get married. She's really only thinking of her own marriage. But her angry remark gets Mr. Big to thinking.

Mr. Big and Carrie buy a magnificent penthouse in Manhattan and they decide to get married. Enid Frick invites Carrie to take pictures for a special edition of Vogue about marriage of women of forty and something years. During the preparation, Carrie raises the guest list from seventy-five to two hundred guests, and a simple wedding dress to a fashionable Vivienne Westwood, intimidating Mr. Big in his third wedding. Meanwhile Miranda has no sex with Steve and he confesses that he had had one night stand with a woman. On the eve of the wedding, in the rehearsal dinner, the upset Miranda tells Mr. Big that marriage ruins everything. On the next day, the scared Mr. Big calls off the wedding leaving Carrie in the church. Carrie feels humiliated and depressed and Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte decide to travel to Mexico with Carrie to the hotel where she was supposed to spend her honeymoon. When Carries returns, she hires the assistant Louise to help her to organize her life. When Miranda discloses what she told to Mr. Big to Carrie in the rehearsal dinner, their friendship is shaken.

After Training

after 12 weeks of training life, finally i come back to melaka, the place i been stay for the pass 4 years, and will be leaving after 4 more months. feel like time pass a litter bit too fast, feel tat i m kinda old d when saw those young faces in campus. how to not feel tat? now i m very "senior" in mmu d..suddenly i feel i m not used to the lifestye here anymore, like too slow..like too free..or like too boring? but i guess i should enjoy this kind of boringness since there will be no more campus life when i graduate. so b4 i start to enjoy my last few months of campus life, i would like to write down the things i had learned in my ITP.

1. Study hard

all my friends noe me kinda lazy in studying, i also forgot who told me that we nonic study too hard, result is nothing, working nv use the things we learn in class. haiz, nomatter who is the guy, i truely hate him now.!! because during training in TRW, i can really feel regret for my lazyness, and feel shame for my stupidness!!! trust me, whatever we learned yesterday, will let become stonger tomorrow. so i promise myself to study harder in this last sem, learn as much as i can to prevent further regret in future.

2. Brave to take challenges

since i have sense, i nv take any challenges in my life!! i only do what i noe i can make it, like i nv study hard to get 10As during spm, cos i noe i cant make it. i wont do the assignment which looks very hard, cos i noe i cant make it also. during training, my boss gave me projects and order me to finish it by myself, my god, i nv handle any project alone b4, even a single lab report. i noe i cant make it, but i no dare to tell my boss, because he is kinda fierce, so i force myself to try. FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL.....always fail, untill i feel damn tired, but i really braveless to tell him i cant make it. sure let him scold till gou li gou li de.so, i tried again..i also donnoe after how many times i fail, suddenly i did it!!! and the same things repeat in every projects he gave to me, but wat different is the times of fail bcome lesser when i handles more and more projects. untill oneday i found the sence of accomplishment when i finished one project, i noe this is the feeling which i miss for the pass four years.Thanks god, finally i found it!! now i really noe tat, maybe we wont success when we tried, but we sure fail when we don try!!

3. appreciate others help

this world ah, good guy really not many a, i really cant forget those ppl who said " this u hv to find out by urseld" or " u better go ask XXXX , he is free than me" when i asked them question!!! why they cant understand, how hard ask me to put down my pride for asking help, when i did it, means tat i really cant make it d. Okay, i should not angry them, cos not everyone born to be helpfull, somemore i m not tat kind of pretty gal, really hard to attract them to help la. But they let me more gratefull to those who used to help me. i m here to say thanks again...thousand of "thank u" also cant represent my feeling la. i miss u all...

4. Best thing come when least expect

i nv really plan where i should training b4 ITP, just simply send resume to TRW when all my friends busy finding BIG company. at last, i get lowest allowance among my friends, all of them laugh me, but i don feel anything. cos the factory near to my house, this oredy can make me happy. But i enter this company i found tat, it is a very BIG company, worlds largers automotive company...wah.. i really cant believe it, but what makes me lagi cant believe is my boss looks like Tony Leong...lolz...don envy, friend, is fate a!!! but this cant make me happy for more than half hour just becos he is married. Don laugh!!!! atleast better than u all...whats make me really happy is, he provide me alot of chances to learn although he like to scold me. He even help me in my Final Year Project...haiz...he must hv Buddah's heart la. or maybe is an angel send by god so..at last, my training life is the best among of all my friends...Best Things really come when least expect!!!!

here to share some my recent pictures with u all la, i took out braces d, m i looks better? i cant wait to meet all my friends d. miss u lots la...muaks..

Lost

Lolz... just now read yan ling's blog, makes me laugh till cant stop ...suddenly forgot the feel of shame ady, share with uguys how lak sei i was la... here's her post

yesterday i went out with molly..herm..herm,it’s an unforgetable and terrible day because we kept losing our way..T_T she intended to go taman sentosa first to buy electronic accesory for her final year project before heading to tebrau jusco for shopping. On the way we go to taman sentosa, we lost our way and can’t find where taman sentosa is located..we feel so panic and dizzy when we lost our way..luckily, at last we reached tebrau jusco..so we went shopping in tebrau jusco first:p

after shopping in tebrau jusco, we can’t find the car..as we parked the car at open air carpark with no number and label, it’s so hard for both of us with no sense of direction to get to find the car T_T we walked a long way and walked through the whole carpark and at last found the car…*fainted* after found the car, we hv to go to find taman sentosa again..erm,even we had asked other ppl how to go taman sentosa from tebrau jusco already, we still can lost our way again..omg..however, we still managed to drive a long way and U-turn back to the starting point and chose the correct way to reach taman sentosa..when reach taman sentosa, the car also out of petrol already..=_=

after buying electronic accesory at taman sentosa, we set off to go back..we lost our way again..we feel wanna cry already..exhausted and despaired…feel very dizzy and heachache as we kept searching for the correct pathway..finally we get to reach the big main road and head back home..molly and I were so depressed at the end of the day x_x

yesterday when i finally reached home, i fall sick and get fever..T_T sob sob..

Na...Two supper silly sapo here la..

The Last Day

Today is the last day i training in TRW, just now was having a simple and warm farewell party with all R&D staff. Thanks for every every litter bless. Thanks Laily for organise the party for me, thanks my boss for teaching, thanks anyone who used to help me, thanks everyone who used to care me. i m sure i gonna miss here lots, expecially Laily, i m really glad to noe u in my life.

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe i should not be so depress now, i noe i should be positive, i noe i should stop thinkking too much, i noe i should i should make my mind clear and rush my fyp......
but i m supper moody moody moody and moody. my fyp really killing me now. the more i study, the more i confuse. i hate myself some time, hate my decision ,y i wan to select this kind of question. maybe i should ask y i was so lazy, NV study good good during my 4 years time. or maybe i even don hv the quality to become an engineer. i feel like i m shit rite now. i hate my life rite now.i hate myself rite now, stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid me...........................stupid molly..............................................................................................stress till cant breath.......

Third Friday at TRW

Today is the third friday i traning at TRW, time pass just a litter bit too fast. my life here is challenging and tired at here. at here, no one really will ask me doing job, maybe is R&D, so they really don hv any job to let a undergraduate engineer to do. Thinking "job" need engineer do, simple job got techniction do. me? really can understand y they only give me RM300 per month. i really don contribute anything at here.But my boss treat me not bad, to ensure i learned something when i leave this company. so he gave lots data to read, and or ask me to do research. After every study, i hv to do presentation, either him alone or all electronic engineer at here. I been pass tru 2 presentations. really feel shame at the 1st presentation. They asked alot of questions, and i cant really answer!!! "i m sorry, i donnoe" this sentense i also donnoe repeat how many times d. Even simplest question as "can u tell me y we use series in this circuirty?" lolz...
Simple? lolz... last time i always wrote the answer"SIMPLER" in the final answer sheet. but i don really believe wat i wrote was true. Ha Ha Ha. how could i answer just like tat? after tat i learn from the lesson d. now i noe i hv to noe everything b4 i present. haiz.. poor me


ok la, i gtg... hope to see u all soon. miss u

2nd day of my ITP

today is my second training day, yesterday was kinda bored. nothing to do for whole day!!! but today is much more better, my boss gave me something to read, and told me will assigh project to me very soon. Protron project, wow...just wonder can i make it onot? i m just a "noe nothing" student. my office only got 4ppl (include me), one malay gal and one malay guy. others are chines guy. Basically can say they r not bad,ya, just NOT BAD ok...noe wat i mean?

this is the "coolest" envirement i had been, makes me miss my ex boss and colleges. thanks them makes me feel warm when i was working v him. but i found that tat stay away from home in the pass 4 years really changed me alot. Last time i m a very braveless girl, i always feel helpless in a unfamiliar envirement. but now i feel nothing even there is no one ask u for lunch or tea. I guess i m a independent women now..hahaha! wat u think?

now my life is only home or work. feel stress cos my fyp..hope everything will be alrite and can get closer v my new college soon. friends, i miss all of u very very much...

sorry for my typo,my pc cant auto checking for me, and i m lazy to check too. OK la, need to back to my place and cont" reading d. Take care