I m discharge

Finally, i m discharge from Pantai Hospital after staying there for 3 says, everything is good, so do not worry. B4 this, when i was sick for more than 1 week, i feel tired all the time, and cant wake up on the rite time everyday. but during the 3 days i stayed at hospital, i sleep till wan vomit. the feeling is so bad, i donnoe how to describe, maybe i stay alone there, the feeling really bad. the patien stay bside me is really sick, n makes me feel not comfortable somemore. i really don wish to stay at hospital anymore!!!!! today morning still can sense the bad feeling when i was waking up. I m really homesick now...really homesick........oh god ...bad feeling faster go away.
heard from my sis that grandmum is not feeling well recently, is has been around 4 months i nv see her, i m miss her badly. i m really a bad grandchild, not at her side all the time,god, pls bless her all the time. i must go home next week...must..

SICK

Is been more than a week...i m sick...fever on n off, everytime i tot recover d, it fever again.went to see doctor 3 times d, last nite still fever..haiz...during this whole week, i cant do anything when everyone is rushing their fyp report. i feel very very tired, and sleepy all the time!!(i sleep around 20 hours per day... ) i don wan to keep on like this, so i decide to go pantai hospital to check up later. they might ask me to stay overnite, abit gan jiong..1st time stay overnite at hospital. hope i can recover asap. friends, feel free, do come n visit me..lolz

the furthest distance in the world

the furthest distance in the world
is not between life and death
but when i stand in front of you
yet you don't know that
i love you

the furthest distance in the world
is not when i stand in front of you
yet you can't see my love
but when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
yet cannot be togehter

the furthest distance in the world
is not being apart while being in love
but when plainly can not resist the yearning
yet pretending
you have never been in my heart

the furthest distance in the world
but using one's indifferent heart
to dig an uncrossable river
for the one who loves you

Tired

1.25am now..i m damn tired but yet don wan to sleep, just pass my last sem 1st midterm..feel like so empty now..a lots of things to do..a lot ...really a lot..i m just like lost in the world that is full of works...i tot i m alone, but i guess i was wrong. the donnoe wat to do boy (poingee) just come n complain that he donnoe wat to do..he got same feeling too and so do yassin and lilo..haiz..final sem students...
i used to plan tat my last sem is as relaxing as possible one..mana tahu..bcome like this...i really too tired now, i need to sleep now ..but the opto notes still occupied my bed....

感恩

my mum posted a poster on the wall of her office which include the sentences below when i was a young. For most the concept that i dint understand well, my mum used to say: "u will noe someday".


感恩曾经让我失望的人，让我学习如何站起来。
感恩曾经让我生气的人，让我学习宽宏大量。
感恩曾经利用我的人，让我懂得我还有替别人做事的能力。
感恩曾经讨厌我的人，让我懂得我在他心目中，还扮演着蛮重要的角色。
感恩曾经伤害我的人，让我从中长大了。
感恩所有曾经爱我的人，让我知道什么叫作幸福。

Stress

this few day i really stress...since sze siang said: u noe, now oredy week 5, 5 more weeks we need to pass up our fyp, wat u had done?..so scare now..tired..and feel abit worry ...haiz, in this world, nothing come easyly.always meet problem! i hate problems...last nite brother Gim send email to me, kinda warm after reading


Haha hoho hihi

Remember to smile whenever stress is overwhelming.
What you see and feel of this world are all what you think about it.
Happy ppl are the successful ones who only think of good things of this world.

Jim, 02 March 2009


thanks brother, i will try to smile de..

two movies in my list to watch

客家酿豆腐

today went eat 客家酿豆腐 with xiao chyi and shin tat, i asked her why feel wan to eat 客家酿豆腐 de ,when i get into shin tat's car , and she answer:" cos u wish to eat"... Oh god, i m damn touching at tat moment! Thank you xiao chyi , u really r a sweet friend! my friend said i miss 酿豆腐 because i m homesick, he is correct, i m kinda homesick now. but i cant go home, cant go home, cant go home.............i need to concentrate on my fyp, too many things have to rush up, now i even donnoe i can go home for my birthday ornot. 酿豆腐 reminds me about my grandmum and my mum. abit sad when thinking all this staff, i noe i m too emotional...just try don think too much! jia you..

第一次的亲密接触

click the picture above to read the story
i had finish reading this books four years ago, with tears...

this part remain in my memory for quite a long time


“如果我还有一天寿命，那天我要做你女友。
　　　我还有一天的命吗？..没有。
　　　所以，很可惜。我今生仍然不是你的女友。
　　　如果我有翅膀，我要从天堂飞下来看你。
　　　我有翅膀吗？..没有。
　　　所以，很遗憾。我从此无法再看到你。
　　　如果把整个浴缸的水倒出，也浇不熄我对你爱情的火 。
　　　整个浴缸的水全部倒得出吗？..可以。
　　　所以，是的。我爱你...
　　　起舞飞扬”

i noe, she really love him at the moment

BUSY

very 1st, i would like to thanks god, after too many difficulties, my best friend's son "niu zai" (call him niu zai cos hope him got "niu jing" can fight the illness) finally gone tru his operation, and doctor said tat everything is good now!!!! recently "niu zai" brought alot of tears to his family and even me, i hope this is will be the end of tragedy oto his parent still need to worried about the medical expenses ( whoever saw their news at New strait Time hope u all can help them, thanks alot )

this week is a very busy for me, lab(fyp)-->class-->lab(fyp)-->meet sv(tien sze)-->class...keep repeating, but i cant see any progress of my fyp cos i cant get the result wanted. feel kinda tired, i most hate troubleshooting!!!! haiz...too many things to do, too litter time, last nite xiao chyi's friend come from kl, so we brough him to eat satay celup, now hv to print notes and study b4 class, then go lab see technition succesfully setup the programmer d onot, then need to see mr muslim at 2.30pm, advandce micro p class at 3.30pm( i m alone at tat class), tomorro( valentine day without valentine) my best friend jie ling come melaka n find me, need to bring them go walk around melaka (any nice place sugguest?) . at nite need to meet aki and hv a "single yum" nite...wine is the best friend of those lonely ppl like us..haha!! next wednesday maybe will hv gathering v those "tun"! industrial training presentation start from 18th! friday i will go kl find my third ex roomate! i noe, i gonna busy till the end of my campus life. some of my friends oredy start send resume to apply job(n i hvn take photo yet) , even part of them hv the interview d. what the hell i m waiting for? haiz..but i don think i m ready for it..how? scare lei..haiz........................

Stay Cool

the day b4 yesterday, i finally went n see Tien Sze ge ( my fyp supervisor) , again, he din give me any technical support about my fyp alto i request it. But he told me i had changed alot since i took his this title. And ask me ever regret to take this title? b4 i answer, he said:" i guess no, cos u learn alot of things compare to most of ur friends out there!" lolz...if he let me answer, i guess i got two anwer, 1st is if i nv training at trw and meet my boss, then i will regret to take this title cos i noe i ll nv make it. second is now, tell u wat, i wont regret alto i had experience alot of stress. Beside that, he also asked me to always stay "cool" lolz, he keep repeat "cool" and asked me understand what he mean ornot! Tien sze, i sure noe what u mean la, u wan me calm down la! he said i always lack of confidence, then feel lost when meet problem! he is correct, i also found tat i had this weakness, i always cant stay cool, and zoom out to see wat is the problem from far!! this make me always lost my way not only when i was driving but most aspects in my life. even tien sze can found my weakness, means tat, my weakness is too obvious...so i decide to add one more section in my 2009 new year'plan, STAY COOL....

daddy told me they went to "查家杂" ( checking our family luck in this ox year) tat day( we went to check every year n it is very accurate) , all of my family members hv good luck for the whole year except me...i will "犯小人(will meet alot of bad guy)" from the begining to the end of the year.........omg...i m so sad to noe that, 小人们pls stay away from me ok? pls pls pls, we jin sui bu fan he sui! anyway, life goes on no matter wat happen. all i can do is ready to the worse!!!

元宵快乐

today is the last day of CNY, we so called Yuan Xiao, is a day of reunion, and also chiness valentine day. plan to go eat zai with xiao chyi this afternoon, and hv a reunion dinner with my sis and 3 cousins here. ya, we hv 5 family members study at mmu here! actually i decide to start eat zai every 1st and 15th from this new year, 1st hope can collect some forture for my dearest siaw hui's son, hope him can grow up healthly, don make his parent so worry. second is wan to reduce my sin!(don ask me wat i done wrong, i also donnoe, just feel tat, we all are human being, sure will make sin) ... so friend, u r welcome to join me eat zai every chu yi shi wu a.
as we always noe, plan nv can match with changes, my parent called me last nite and inform tat they will be coming melaka for reunion today. i feel happy but yet kinda worry, wat makes them decide to come? i been study at melaka for 4 and half years, they nv do like this. i do believe human wont changes with no reason...wondering.............Ok...maybe i m think too much d. need to prepare d, i guess my parent will reach here soon, take care my friends, wish u all hv a warm yuan xiao...god bless...

《游龙戏凤》

今天下午和惠珍家敏去看了《游龙戏凤》， 主演的是我最爱的刘德华，剧情你们可以参考官方网站http://youlongxifeng.ent.sina.com.cn/
after watched , i found tat i had fall in love with 张涵予, so gentle, so brave . And start to think if i m 何韵诗, wat will i do when falling in love with a different level men. i don really have the ideal, or maybe i just hvn meet the right men who will let me give up and don care everything. Valentine day is coming soon, wish all of the couples 有情人终成眷属。。。

movie plan to watch:
画皮
赤壁
幸福万岁
shopaholic

anyone interested can contact me, we can go watch together..hehe

Beyonce -I Am Sasha Fierce

Finally Beyonce release her brand new album "I Am Sasha Fierce"!!! beside the song "If i were a boy", "AVE MARIA" is my favorite song in the album. sometime i think the feel towards music is very subjective, so i got no intention to promote her songs here oto i m her "big fans", just like to share this song to all of my friends..may u all have a great weekend..God bless...

Emo agian

lolz, sometime i also feel pai sei to tell tat i m emo again. emo emo emo...life like a cycle, always repeat the same thing over and over again...as i promise myself in the 2009 new year's plan, i wan to quit shopping as it was my favarouit hobby, but really cant resist it when marilyn ask me out. gosh...sometime i really cant deny tat friends are really can influnce me. while everybody is busy with their ITP report( today is the due date) i m sitting here doing nothing.( i done my report on the last day of my ITP, thanks boss!) everyone is so busy, makes no ppl free to choi me,eeeeeeeeee......... i feel so lonely in this moment, suddenly miss the life of training, atleast i got laily, atleast i can learn new things, atleast i can talk v david and atleast i can get scold by my boss. life at here is too boring, as i only took two subjects this sem, and only one is same class with my friends, how can i stand the lonelyness? i noe actually the free time is for me to study and doing fyp, but ...but...but...haiz...timetable also done d, y i cant just follow it? few of series waiting me to wacth but i noe i should stop to get drama from my friends,maybe brough a 160Gb new hardisk is not a very brilliant ideal , god, pls help me...give me "FIRE" to follow my plan. else, i ll be the same old me again...still remember one of the lecturer in the ESRS class said tat, try to smile, even when u r not happy, because when pretent to be happy, u will be happy at last!!! does it really true? and as i noe from the “论语心得“ she said, we should enjoy the loneliness, only loneliness can give us a space to see clearly who we r, what we want, and which is good. all of these theory telling me tat god had send me a great chance to learn, but i m really moody to face this situation. just now sze siang gave me the Jam tart he brought me from home, i guess he wan to thanks me for printing report for him, but i rather believe as he said he specially brought for me...lolz!!!! sometime friendship really cant stand if we always calculate, when if the friendship still stand strong after u calculated, then u better cherish it. Friends are easy to make, good friends are hard to find and the best friends is the gift of heaven. suddenly i feel i m not tat moody d as i wrote till here, thanks god to sending me gifts, alto is not many, but i m grateful tat i hv the gift, y i always so negative lei? i got my best friends , those so caring me, y i still care of the small lonelyness at here ....hahaha
really stupid molly... yeah...i have to cheer up...i have to be happy!!!!!
don forget to mention tat this week i just meet two long lost friends at friendster, and i cant believe that is them regconise 1st. Y i cant believe lei? if u r me, then u will feel the same way when most of my secondary friends cant regcon me at shopping mall. M i really change alot? lolz
i m so happy can meet them in my life again, one of them is my softball coach during secondary school, and the other is my classmate during form 2 or form 3. i nearly forget i been joining softball team b4, lots of memory suddenly spring up, its been 10 years ago. i wonder y my coach still can remember me, but he said i gave him lots of memory. i nv tot that i will gave others alot of memory in my life even for the one i used to love and who used to love me( oto he gave me alot of memory). after talking v them, i found out i had miss alot of ppl in my life, so i decide to go KL find my friends to prevent our relationship lost. maybe i need to be more ative to maintain my relationship with friend.. omg...oredy 3.10pm....3.30 i got class...hvn take bath yet..anyway i m happier now...thanks for ur ears...take care

Sex and the city

last nite finally watched movie " Sex and The City". For those never watch, below is the summary of the movie. For me, this is a good movie, at least it touched my heart and steep in the mood untill now. I m falling in love with the song "Auld lang syne" in the movie. (attached) hope u will like it too...

After moving in together in an impossibly beautiful New York apartment, Carrie Bradshaw and Mr. Big make a rather arbitrary decision to get married. The wedding itself proves to be anything but a hasty affair--the guest list quickly blooms from 75 to 200 guests, and Carrie's simple, label-less wedding gown gives way to an enormous creation that makes her look like a gigantic cream puff. An upcoming photo spread in Vogue puts the event--which will take place at the New York Public Library--squarely in the public eye. Meanwhile, Carrie's girlfriends--Samantha, the sexpot; Charlotte, the sweet naïf; and Miranda, the rigid perfectionist--could not be happier. At least, they couldn't be happier for Carrie. Charlotte still has the unrealized hope of getting pregnant. Samantha is finding a loving, committed relationship more grueling than she could have imagined. Miranda unwittingly lets her own unhappiness--created when Steve admits to cheating on her just once--spoil Carrie's. After a heated encounter with Steve, she happens to spot Mr. Big and tells him he's crazy to get married. She's really only thinking of her own marriage. But her angry remark gets Mr. Big to thinking.

Mr. Big and Carrie buy a magnificent penthouse in Manhattan and they decide to get married. Enid Frick invites Carrie to take pictures for a special edition of Vogue about marriage of women of forty and something years. During the preparation, Carrie raises the guest list from seventy-five to two hundred guests, and a simple wedding dress to a fashionable Vivienne Westwood, intimidating Mr. Big in his third wedding. Meanwhile Miranda has no sex with Steve and he confesses that he had had one night stand with a woman. On the eve of the wedding, in the rehearsal dinner, the upset Miranda tells Mr. Big that marriage ruins everything. On the next day, the scared Mr. Big calls off the wedding leaving Carrie in the church. Carrie feels humiliated and depressed and Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte decide to travel to Mexico with Carrie to the hotel where she was supposed to spend her honeymoon. When Carries returns, she hires the assistant Louise to help her to organize her life. When Miranda discloses what she told to Mr. Big to Carrie in the rehearsal dinner, their friendship is shaken.

After Training

after 12 weeks of training life, finally i come back to melaka, the place i been stay for the pass 4 years, and will be leaving after 4 more months. feel like time pass a litter bit too fast, feel tat i m kinda old d when saw those young faces in campus. how to not feel tat? now i m very "senior" in mmu d..suddenly i feel i m not used to the lifestye here anymore, like too slow..like too free..or like too boring? but i guess i should enjoy this kind of boringness since there will be no more campus life when i graduate. so b4 i start to enjoy my last few months of campus life, i would like to write down the things i had learned in my ITP.

1. Study hard

all my friends noe me kinda lazy in studying, i also forgot who told me that we nonic study too hard, result is nothing, working nv use the things we learn in class. haiz, nomatter who is the guy, i truely hate him now.!! because during training in TRW, i can really feel regret for my lazyness, and feel shame for my stupidness!!! trust me, whatever we learned yesterday, will let become stonger tomorrow. so i promise myself to study harder in this last sem, learn as much as i can to prevent further regret in future.

2. Brave to take challenges

since i have sense, i nv take any challenges in my life!! i only do what i noe i can make it, like i nv study hard to get 10As during spm, cos i noe i cant make it. i wont do the assignment which looks very hard, cos i noe i cant make it also. during training, my boss gave me projects and order me to finish it by myself, my god, i nv handle any project alone b4, even a single lab report. i noe i cant make it, but i no dare to tell my boss, because he is kinda fierce, so i force myself to try. FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL.....always fail, untill i feel damn tired, but i really braveless to tell him i cant make it. sure let him scold till gou li gou li de.so, i tried again..i also donnoe after how many times i fail, suddenly i did it!!! and the same things repeat in every projects he gave to me, but wat different is the times of fail bcome lesser when i handles more and more projects. untill oneday i found the sence of accomplishment when i finished one project, i noe this is the feeling which i miss for the pass four years.Thanks god, finally i found it!! now i really noe tat, maybe we wont success when we tried, but we sure fail when we don try!!

3. appreciate others help

this world ah, good guy really not many a, i really cant forget those ppl who said " this u hv to find out by urseld" or " u better go ask XXXX , he is free than me" when i asked them question!!! why they cant understand, how hard ask me to put down my pride for asking help, when i did it, means tat i really cant make it d. Okay, i should not angry them, cos not everyone born to be helpfull, somemore i m not tat kind of pretty gal, really hard to attract them to help la. But they let me more gratefull to those who used to help me. i m here to say thanks again...thousand of "thank u" also cant represent my feeling la. i miss u all...

4. Best thing come when least expect

i nv really plan where i should training b4 ITP, just simply send resume to TRW when all my friends busy finding BIG company. at last, i get lowest allowance among my friends, all of them laugh me, but i don feel anything. cos the factory near to my house, this oredy can make me happy. But i enter this company i found tat, it is a very BIG company, worlds largers automotive company...wah.. i really cant believe it, but what makes me lagi cant believe is my boss looks like Tony Leong...lolz...don envy, friend, is fate a!!! but this cant make me happy for more than half hour just becos he is married. Don laugh!!!! atleast better than u all...whats make me really happy is, he provide me alot of chances to learn although he like to scold me. He even help me in my Final Year Project...haiz...he must hv Buddah's heart la. or maybe is an angel send by god so..at last, my training life is the best among of all my friends...Best Things really come when least expect!!!!

here to share some my recent pictures with u all la, i took out braces d, m i looks better? i cant wait to meet all my friends d. miss u lots la...muaks..

Lost

Lolz... just now read yan ling's blog, makes me laugh till cant stop ...suddenly forgot the feel of shame ady, share with uguys how lak sei i was la... here's her post

yesterday i went out with molly..herm..herm,it’s an unforgetable and terrible day because we kept losing our way..T_T she intended to go taman sentosa first to buy electronic accesory for her final year project before heading to tebrau jusco for shopping. On the way we go to taman sentosa, we lost our way and can’t find where taman sentosa is located..we feel so panic and dizzy when we lost our way..luckily, at last we reached tebrau jusco..so we went shopping in tebrau jusco first:p

after shopping in tebrau jusco, we can’t find the car..as we parked the car at open air carpark with no number and label, it’s so hard for both of us with no sense of direction to get to find the car T_T we walked a long way and walked through the whole carpark and at last found the car…*fainted* after found the car, we hv to go to find taman sentosa again..erm,even we had asked other ppl how to go taman sentosa from tebrau jusco already, we still can lost our way again..omg..however, we still managed to drive a long way and U-turn back to the starting point and chose the correct way to reach taman sentosa..when reach taman sentosa, the car also out of petrol already..=_=

after buying electronic accesory at taman sentosa, we set off to go back..we lost our way again..we feel wanna cry already..exhausted and despaired…feel very dizzy and heachache as we kept searching for the correct pathway..finally we get to reach the big main road and head back home..molly and I were so depressed at the end of the day x_x

yesterday when i finally reached home, i fall sick and get fever..T_T sob sob..

Na...Two supper silly sapo here la..

The Last Day

Today is the last day i training in TRW, just now was having a simple and warm farewell party with all R&D staff. Thanks for every every litter bless. Thanks Laily for organise the party for me, thanks my boss for teaching, thanks anyone who used to help me, thanks everyone who used to care me. i m sure i gonna miss here lots, expecially Laily, i m really glad to noe u in my life.

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe i should not be so depress now, i noe i should be positive, i noe i should stop thinkking too much, i noe i should i should make my mind clear and rush my fyp......
but i m supper moody moody moody and moody. my fyp really killing me now. the more i study, the more i confuse. i hate myself some time, hate my decision ,y i wan to select this kind of question. maybe i should ask y i was so lazy, NV study good good during my 4 years time. or maybe i even don hv the quality to become an engineer. i feel like i m shit rite now. i hate my life rite now.i hate myself rite now, stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid me...........................stupid molly..............................................................................................stress till cant breath.......

Third Friday at TRW

Today is the third friday i traning at TRW, time pass just a litter bit too fast. my life here is challenging and tired at here. at here, no one really will ask me doing job, maybe is R&D, so they really don hv any job to let a undergraduate engineer to do. Thinking "job" need engineer do, simple job got techniction do. me? really can understand y they only give me RM300 per month. i really don contribute anything at here.But my boss treat me not bad, to ensure i learned something when i leave this company. so he gave lots data to read, and or ask me to do research. After every study, i hv to do presentation, either him alone or all electronic engineer at here. I been pass tru 2 presentations. really feel shame at the 1st presentation. They asked alot of questions, and i cant really answer!!! "i m sorry, i donnoe" this sentense i also donnoe repeat how many times d. Even simplest question as "can u tell me y we use series in this circuirty?" lolz...
Simple? lolz... last time i always wrote the answer"SIMPLER" in the final answer sheet. but i don really believe wat i wrote was true. Ha Ha Ha. how could i answer just like tat? after tat i learn from the lesson d. now i noe i hv to noe everything b4 i present. haiz.. poor me


ok la, i gtg... hope to see u all soon. miss u

2nd day of my ITP

today is my second training day, yesterday was kinda bored. nothing to do for whole day!!! but today is much more better, my boss gave me something to read, and told me will assigh project to me very soon. Protron project, wow...just wonder can i make it onot? i m just a "noe nothing" student. my office only got 4ppl (include me), one malay gal and one malay guy. others are chines guy. Basically can say they r not bad,ya, just NOT BAD ok...noe wat i mean?

this is the "coolest" envirement i had been, makes me miss my ex boss and colleges. thanks them makes me feel warm when i was working v him. but i found that tat stay away from home in the pass 4 years really changed me alot. Last time i m a very braveless girl, i always feel helpless in a unfamiliar envirement. but now i feel nothing even there is no one ask u for lunch or tea. I guess i m a independent women now..hahaha! wat u think?

now my life is only home or work. feel stress cos my fyp..hope everything will be alrite and can get closer v my new college soon. friends, i miss all of u very very much...

sorry for my typo,my pc cant auto checking for me, and i m lazy to check too. OK la, need to back to my place and cont" reading d. Take care

The day before French exam

Tomorrow is my french exam le, but now i still checking those word v dictionary. Have to force myself to finish memorize by tonight.

La Tour Eiffel

La Pyramide de Louvre

La Maison
Marques
Famous People in french
Geagraphie
Economy
Politic
Hongkafuni
Clebrete
Revolution
International
Algeria


so many things to memorize, but really don hv mood to study. while everyone is starting enjoy, go home , prepare for training. ME still stay in front the pc and study, my roomate also got exam till 18th, but she been playing v her pc for many days. and never touch the note. wat a big different!!! sometime really not happy to see how they study, stucture questions lecture got give answer, just memorise 2 sheets of paper! MCQ also got tips, even told them which slide need to study, nonic study all slides. walau ei, same mmu student, we study like sapo and so zai, they study like "immortal". Useless to complain here since i m a final year student already. maybe this kind of stress make us easy to survive in the industrial next time. looking forward to my short break and relieve from my braces..i cant wait anymore..hahaha

Hoo Ray......

my 1st trimester of final year will be ending very very soon. just need to wait for 2 more days, after my french exam, then i ll be relieve. ha ha, actually oredy relieve after emi and law paper. the mcq questions in the law paper are damn hard, i tot i feel hard cos i just read tru once. and at the moment i just wondering was i really old d? y i don hv any impression of those words. But i don care so much, i guess and hope i wont fail. i even come out earlier from the exam hall and waiting for the sushi king...hahaha, ya..is sushi king members day again! i think this is the 4th time i "join this festival". all i can say is JJ's sushi king really did a lousy job on this. and feel kinda watse, watse my time and money, but is ok la, treat as a last gathering b4 training v my friends.




One thing makes me so happy which is i finally can take out my braces le. 1 and half years, i cant smiling v my teeth. Really feel happy, but the bad thing is i need to go KL to take out cos my doctor nv expect my teeth will be done so fast. And if i wan to wait him come melaka again, i hv to take leave v my training company and take bus from jb to melaka for my braces and take bus go back jb on the same day. will be kinda troublesome and tired i think. so now i hv to plan good good about the kl trip. suan bian find my cyber friend since long time nv meet ba. but still really happy to finish my braces life. Hoo Ray
here wan to say happy holiday and training day to all my friends. will miss u all lots.muaks

Almost Lover

Good friend aki intro this song to me just now


bring me back to some memories. remind me for someone. miss him somehow

Almost lover
a fine frenzy


Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes1
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you''''d want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I''''m trying not to think about you
Can''''t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should''''ve known you''''d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I''''d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you''''d want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I''''m trying not to think about you
Can''''t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should''''ve known you''''d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you''''re gone and I''''m haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I''''m trying not to think about you
Can''''t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you''''d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Meaningful

yesterday i downloaded a lot of old songs and read a lot emails since there is so boring to stay in frond of my pc and studying Antenna. Those songs and contains of emails ain't new to me, i had read and listen to them more than "many" times. But this time is different, suddenly feel so meaningful , like i finally understand what its really mean, and the feeling of the authors.maybe this proved i oredy grown up(=grown old?) , or let me noe sometime we will only noe the feeling when we get tru sth. so it makes me believe that we hv no rite to claim or complain a "zhang bei"(the person older than us) tat they did wrong or blame them for sth. as long as we nv get tru the happend they meet, we will nv noe their feeling. maybe what we believe is right is not so right and same for the bad.
so now wish to share to you all those phrase i feel is meaningful. and hope u all feel the same way too...
1. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

2. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

3. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

4. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

5. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

6. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

7. 问你何时曾看见 这世界为了人们改变
有了梦寐以求的容颜 是否就算是拥有春天

want to say something to my cousin ah ghim also, thank u for always caring me. u make me feel like u r my real brother, and this feeling is great. i m glad i m came mmu cos it give me a chance to get closer with u. Thank u brother!


ok..i m not really "寂寞难耐" ah.. just this song remind me for the primary school friend wei ling. heard tat his dad pass away last week. hope he RIP

I gonna miss u all

i just come back from hometown yesterday, busy studying for final. Dint study much at home as i had fever for more than one week. cham la, now bcome lagi stupid after sick. Back to my room, everything tat i miss during study week at home , my window, my bed,my pictures, my poster my pillow, my pc,my make up box, my books and my freedom. 5 years stay melaka, sometime i feel scare, i feel i m bad,cos i really feel staying here is more comform than stay at my home. since many years b4, my study table occupied by my sis and brother d, my room control by my sis, my bed location change by my sis and mum, nothing seems like really belongs to me. And i feel everythings had changed, and everyone had changed. My sis, my mum, my brother, even my friends. or maybe i m the one who changed!!
gonna back home for Training soon, i guess i will miss melaka. i will miss my friends; miss the way xiao chyi say 38 thing; miss the way Marilyn kidding v me; miss the way Aki complain shahidul; miss the way mei shan gia si; miss sze siang said he is not longer my best friend; miss the way florence care me; miss the way lee meng worrying; miss the way poingee speack french to me;miss the way kelvin wondering y i so happy; miss the way my make up teacher call me moli dian zi; miss the way lilo ask me go to c tien sze d?; miss the way tien sze ask me don worry so much; maybe even will miss daniel brought shao bao for me and ask me don so siu hei after i angry him for around one sem. seems like too many things to miss! what will my life be when i training? will i still be happy without my friends, my yoga class, my make up class, my french class, my"online" life?

Going HOme

Yoz, friends... i gonna go home later, damn long nv back to senai d. Abit homesick la. recently feel damn stress, stress for fyp even the presentation was over,stress for the final exam, stress for some stupid classmate(ok..she din give me stress,but really proved tat she is as sui as others said. i should listen to all my friends b4,nv pity on her!!! human like tat wont regret for what she do de!)
Back to the topic, this time i will only come back melaka one week b4 final exam. lolz, friends don miss too much o. i really hope i can relieve my stress when i reach home. hope to see siaw hui's baby, hope to see gu gu's baby. hope to find solution for my fyp, hope to enhance my programing skill asap.too many hope but too litter time. as cp status GrEeN aPpLE { 加油！我一定可以的！FYP } i hope i also can a! and wan say sorry to my cyber friends, i really busy and moodless to contact u all( i m such a bad friend) i hope u all doing well. i love u all!!!Sorry to Florence also, i cant believe i forgot to greet u on ur birthday!!!( nothing is cant believe also la, as i always forgot others birthday) Hope u like the present i gave.And Happy Belated Birthday Florence. hope u can maintain ur cute+sexy image as long as possible. MUAKS

Last Friday went out v my girlfriends keiko and aki, plan to go "gogo" singK. but some unwanted situation appear. we shift ourselves to DP cinema. The movie we watched is

The Other Boleyn Girl (2008)

For me, this is not a bad movie: 3.75 over 5 star!!! at least it was really impress us.

Synopsis: Based on the best selling novel by Philippa Gregory, The Other Boleyn Girl is an engrossing and sensual tale of intrigue, romance, and betrayal set against the backdrop of a defining moment in history. Two sisters, Anne (Natalie Portman) and Mary (Scarlett Johansson) Boleyn, are driven by... Based on the best selling novel by Philippa Gregory, The Other Boleyn Girl is an engrossing and sensual tale of intrigue, romance, and betrayal set against the backdrop of a defining moment in history. Two sisters, Anne (Natalie Portman) and Mary (Scarlett Johansson) Boleyn, are driven by their ambitious father and uncle to advance the family’s power and status by courting the affections of the King of England (Eric Bana). Leaving behind the simplicity of country life, the girls are thrust into the dangerous and thrilling world of court life – and what began as a bid to help their family develops into a ruthless rivalry between Anne and Mary for the love of the king. Initially, Mary wins King Henry’s favor and becomes his mistress, bearing him an illegitimate child. But Anne, clever, conniving, and fearless, edges aside both her sister and Henry’s wife, Queen Katherine of Aragon, in her relentless pursuit of the king. Despite Mary’s genuine feelings for Henry, her sister Anne has her sights set on the ultimate prize; Anne will not stop until she is Queen of England. As the Boleyn girls battle for the love of a king – one driven by ambition, the other by true affection – England is torn apart. Despite the dramatic consequences, the Boleyn girls ultimately find strength and loyalty in each other, and they remain forever connected by their bond as sisters

Plot:When Catherine of Aragon fails to produce a male heir to the British throne, the Duke of Norfolk and his brother in law Thomas Boleyn scheme to install the latter's elder daughter Anne in the court of Henry VIII as the king's mistress and potential mother of his son, thereby furthering their own political ambitions. Their plan backfires when Henry, injured in a hunting accident indirectly precipitated by Anne, is nursed by her sister Mary and becomes smitten with her. With great reluctance, the recently married Mary and her husband William Carey agree to accept positions in the court, knowing full well what will be expected of her. Separated from her spouse, who is sent away on an assignment by the king, Mary finds herself falling in love with Henry.

Rebellious Anne secretly marries betrothed nobleman Henry Percy and confides in her brother George, who tells Mary about the elopement. Concerned that Anne will ruin her reputation by marrying a nobleman without the King's consent, she alerts her father and uncle of the union. They confront Anne, who argues that the marriage has been consummated and what is done before God cannot be undone, and she is exiled to France in disgrace.

The Boleyn family's fortunes seem to be secured when Mary becomes pregnant. When she nearly suffers a miscarriage, she is confined to bed for the remainder of her pregnancy, and Norfolk recalls Anne to England to keep Henry's attention from wandering to another rival, particularly Jane Seymour. Anne successfully embarks on a campaign to seduce Henry, revealing herself to be more sophisticated and accomplished than she was prior to her exile. By withholding her sexual favors, she ensures the king's continued interest, finally making him promise never to bed his wife or speak to her sister in exchange for her giving him hope of eventually possessing her. Anne exacts this promise just after Mary gives birth to the much-anticipated son, making Mary's triumph hollow.

The ambitious Anne encourages Henry to break from the Roman Catholic Church when Pope Clement VII refuses to annul his marriage to Catherine. Henry succumbs to Anne's demands, declares himself the Supreme Governor of the Church of England, and divorces his wife. The scandal of Anne's brief, secret marriage to Henry Percy threatens her forthcoming marriage to the king until Mary, out of loyalty to her family, returns to court and lies on Anne's behalf, assuring Henry her union with Percy never was consummated. Anne weds Henry and becomes Queen of England. The sisters reach a reconciliation and Mary stays by Anne's side at court.

Despite the birth of a healthy daughter, Elizabeth, Henry is unhappy with Anne's failure to deliver a son and legitimate male heir to the throne. After she miscarries their second child, a now desperate Anne asks her brother George to try to impregnate her. Although he ultimately refuses to grant her request, his neglected wife Jane witnesses enough of their encounter to become suspicious. Her testimony leads to the arrest, trial, and execution of both George and Anne. Mary returns to court to plead for her sister's life, but Henry refuses to intercede. He warns Mary never to come to court again, because her family's disgrace could result in danger to her as well. Mary fulfills her last promise to Anne and takes care of her infant daughter.

The closing captions reveal the king need not have been concerned about his failure to produce a legitimate male heir, because his daughter Elizabeth served her country well for forty-five years.

Justice My Ass

Feel the UMNO really stupid after read this email. i m always not a "racing person". as i see my malay friends around me, they don need others help or protect to competition with us, some of them even much more better than me, success is just depend on how hardworking we are. And we all noe that the over protection will only produces "useless genaration". Maybe next time i should not give a single chance to the OMNO again as i realise that they nv "awake"!!!


the email i received
If you love this country you should help circulate this mail to all your friends who are MIC and MCA members, if they are not too busy enriching their own pockets and make future generation of their children, their grand children and their great grand children suffer. For 50 years the Chinese have given their vote to MCA and for 50 years MCA have pass their vote to the Malay, yes Malay in UMNO for a little self benefits. MCA members have no balls to speak for the Chinese and yes MCA in Johor who have NO Balls to speak against the UMNO. Where do you think the Malays come from Indonesia lah and what ever happened to the great Chinese Warriors from Yunan that saved these Malays from Siamese attack called Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat and princess Hang Li Po??, disappears from our children history books that we used to read in our school days (ungrateful UMNO).

Only Raja Petra will speak for the Chinese and the Indian.

PLEASE PASS THIS INFORMATION TO ALL YOUR RELATIVES AND FRIENDS.
KEEP PASSING IT UNTIL A NEW GOVERNMENT TAKES OVER THE COUNTRY.


Subject: Raja Petra says, ' Justice My Ass !! '

Here's ANOTHER Reason NON-Malays Should NOT Vote UMNO in Any Future General Elections and Bye-Elections
Thursday, June 05, 2008
16:39

Read here from M'sians Unplugged ...
Average Non-Malay Malaysians and NON-Malay Bumiputras have LITTLE future for their children and their grandchildren IF they still vote Barisan Nasional which allows UMNO to remain in Government - it was before, it is today, and it will be tomorrow.

Excerpts from article by Raja Petra Kamarudin
by

Raja Petra Kamarudin
'Last month, Umno Johor said that the greatest mistake they made was in giving the non-Malay immigrants citizenship in August 1957. Now that they have been given citizenship they show their ingratitude by voting for the opposition.

Yes, non-Malays, even those born in Malaysia , are immigrants. And, being immigrants, they must vote Barisan Nasional. And if they do not vote for Barisan Nasional then they are ungrateful.

Yes, voting is your right. This is your right according to the Federal Constitution of Malaysia. Malays can vote for whomsoever they would like to vote for because the Constitution allows them to do so. Malays, therefore, can vote for the opposition.

But, if you are non-Malay, then you must vote for Barisan Nasional because you are an immigrant. If you vote for the opposition then you are a traitor, you are ungrateful, and it was a great mistake giving you citizenship in 1957.

Tun Dr Mahathir's father was born in INDIA. But Tun Dr Mahathir can vote opposition. He can even oppose Umno like he is doing so now. In fact, he can even become the Prime Minister. He is not an ungrateful immigrant who should be sent back to India .

Tian Chua, however, can't oppose Umno. Tian Chua, whose family settled in Malaya long before the Portuguese came in 1511, is an immigrant. And if he is not happy and if he opposes Umno then he should go back to Chin a .

And Umno Johor regrets giving Tian Chua citizenship in 1957 but does not regret giving Tun Dr Mahathir citizenship.

Why? Because Tun Dr Mahathir is Muslim while Tian Chua is not.
But if Tian Chua circumcises and takes on the Muslim name of Musa Bin Susah and marries a Malay woman, then he need not go back to Chin a and Umno does not regret giving him citizenship in 1957.

The Malays have a very warped view of justice. Malays practice two standards of justice.
There is one standard for the Malays and another for the non-Malays.

And 90% of the tax is paid by the NON-Malays and 10% by the Malays, says Tun Dr Mahathir.

But 10% of the scholarships must go to the NON-Malays and 90% to the Malays.

And when they propose to change this to 40% for the non-Malays and 60% for the Malays, the Malays raise a hue and cry.
And they call this justice. And they say Islam is about justice.'

JUSTICE MY ASS, MAN !!!!