STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe i should not be so depress now, i noe i should be positive, i noe i should stop thinkking too much, i noe i should i should make my mind clear and rush my fyp......
but i m supper moody moody moody and moody. my fyp really killing me now. the more i study, the more i confuse. i hate myself some time, hate my decision ,y i wan to select this kind of question. maybe i should ask y i was so lazy, NV study good good during my 4 years time. or maybe i even don hv the quality to become an engineer. i feel like i m shit rite now. i hate my life rite now.i hate myself rite now, stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid me...........................stupid molly..............................................................................................stress till cant breath.......

Third Friday at TRW

Today is the third friday i traning at TRW, time pass just a litter bit too fast. my life here is challenging and tired at here. at here, no one really will ask me doing job, maybe is R&D, so they really don hv any job to let a undergraduate engineer to do. Thinking "job" need engineer do, simple job got techniction do. me? really can understand y they only give me RM300 per month. i really don contribute anything at here.But my boss treat me not bad, to ensure i learned something when i leave this company. so he gave lots data to read, and or ask me to do research. After every study, i hv to do presentation, either him alone or all electronic engineer at here. I been pass tru 2 presentations. really feel shame at the 1st presentation. They asked alot of questions, and i cant really answer!!! "i m sorry, i donnoe" this sentense i also donnoe repeat how many times d. Even simplest question as "can u tell me y we use series in this circuirty?" lolz...
Simple? lolz... last time i always wrote the answer"SIMPLER" in the final answer sheet. but i don really believe wat i wrote was true. Ha Ha Ha. how could i answer just like tat? after tat i learn from the lesson d. now i noe i hv to noe everything b4 i present. haiz.. poor me


ok la, i gtg... hope to see u all soon. miss u

2nd day of my ITP

today is my second training day, yesterday was kinda bored. nothing to do for whole day!!! but today is much more better, my boss gave me something to read, and told me will assigh project to me very soon. Protron project, wow...just wonder can i make it onot? i m just a "noe nothing" student. my office only got 4ppl (include me), one malay gal and one malay guy. others are chines guy. Basically can say they r not bad,ya, just NOT BAD ok...noe wat i mean?

this is the "coolest" envirement i had been, makes me miss my ex boss and colleges. thanks them makes me feel warm when i was working v him. but i found that tat stay away from home in the pass 4 years really changed me alot. Last time i m a very braveless girl, i always feel helpless in a unfamiliar envirement. but now i feel nothing even there is no one ask u for lunch or tea. I guess i m a independent women now..hahaha! wat u think?

now my life is only home or work. feel stress cos my fyp..hope everything will be alrite and can get closer v my new college soon. friends, i miss all of u very very much...

sorry for my typo,my pc cant auto checking for me, and i m lazy to check too. OK la, need to back to my place and cont" reading d. Take care

The day before French exam

Tomorrow is my french exam le, but now i still checking those word v dictionary. Have to force myself to finish memorize by tonight.

La Tour Eiffel

La Pyramide de Louvre

La Maison
Marques
Famous People in french
Geagraphie
Economy
Politic
Hongkafuni
Clebrete
Revolution
International
Algeria


so many things to memorize, but really don hv mood to study. while everyone is starting enjoy, go home , prepare for training. ME still stay in front the pc and study, my roomate also got exam till 18th, but she been playing v her pc for many days. and never touch the note. wat a big different!!! sometime really not happy to see how they study, stucture questions lecture got give answer, just memorise 2 sheets of paper! MCQ also got tips, even told them which slide need to study, nonic study all slides. walau ei, same mmu student, we study like sapo and so zai, they study like "immortal". Useless to complain here since i m a final year student already. maybe this kind of stress make us easy to survive in the industrial next time. looking forward to my short break and relieve from my braces..i cant wait anymore..hahaha

Hoo Ray......

my 1st trimester of final year will be ending very very soon. just need to wait for 2 more days, after my french exam, then i ll be relieve. ha ha, actually oredy relieve after emi and law paper. the mcq questions in the law paper are damn hard, i tot i feel hard cos i just read tru once. and at the moment i just wondering was i really old d? y i don hv any impression of those words. But i don care so much, i guess and hope i wont fail. i even come out earlier from the exam hall and waiting for the sushi king...hahaha, ya..is sushi king members day again! i think this is the 4th time i "join this festival". all i can say is JJ's sushi king really did a lousy job on this. and feel kinda watse, watse my time and money, but is ok la, treat as a last gathering b4 training v my friends.




One thing makes me so happy which is i finally can take out my braces le. 1 and half years, i cant smiling v my teeth. Really feel happy, but the bad thing is i need to go KL to take out cos my doctor nv expect my teeth will be done so fast. And if i wan to wait him come melaka again, i hv to take leave v my training company and take bus from jb to melaka for my braces and take bus go back jb on the same day. will be kinda troublesome and tired i think. so now i hv to plan good good about the kl trip. suan bian find my cyber friend since long time nv meet ba. but still really happy to finish my braces life. Hoo Ray
here wan to say happy holiday and training day to all my friends. will miss u all lots.muaks

Almost Lover

Good friend aki intro this song to me just now


bring me back to some memories. remind me for someone. miss him somehow

Almost lover
a fine frenzy


Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes1
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you''''d want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I''''m trying not to think about you
Can''''t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should''''ve known you''''d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I''''d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you''''d want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I''''m trying not to think about you
Can''''t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should''''ve known you''''d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you''''re gone and I''''m haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I''''m trying not to think about you
Can''''t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you''''d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Meaningful

yesterday i downloaded a lot of old songs and read a lot emails since there is so boring to stay in frond of my pc and studying Antenna. Those songs and contains of emails ain't new to me, i had read and listen to them more than "many" times. But this time is different, suddenly feel so meaningful , like i finally understand what its really mean, and the feeling of the authors.maybe this proved i oredy grown up(=grown old?) , or let me noe sometime we will only noe the feeling when we get tru sth. so it makes me believe that we hv no rite to claim or complain a "zhang bei"(the person older than us) tat they did wrong or blame them for sth. as long as we nv get tru the happend they meet, we will nv noe their feeling. maybe what we believe is right is not so right and same for the bad.
so now wish to share to you all those phrase i feel is meaningful. and hope u all feel the same way too...
1. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

2. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

3. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

4. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

5. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

6. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

7. 问你何时曾看见 这世界为了人们改变
有了梦寐以求的容颜 是否就算是拥有春天

want to say something to my cousin ah ghim also, thank u for always caring me. u make me feel like u r my real brother, and this feeling is great. i m glad i m came mmu cos it give me a chance to get closer with u. Thank u brother!


ok..i m not really "寂寞难耐" ah.. just this song remind me for the primary school friend wei ling. heard tat his dad pass away last week. hope he RIP

I gonna miss u all

i just come back from hometown yesterday, busy studying for final. Dint study much at home as i had fever for more than one week. cham la, now bcome lagi stupid after sick. Back to my room, everything tat i miss during study week at home , my window, my bed,my pictures, my poster my pillow, my pc,my make up box, my books and my freedom. 5 years stay melaka, sometime i feel scare, i feel i m bad,cos i really feel staying here is more comform than stay at my home. since many years b4, my study table occupied by my sis and brother d, my room control by my sis, my bed location change by my sis and mum, nothing seems like really belongs to me. And i feel everythings had changed, and everyone had changed. My sis, my mum, my brother, even my friends. or maybe i m the one who changed!!
gonna back home for Training soon, i guess i will miss melaka. i will miss my friends; miss the way xiao chyi say 38 thing; miss the way Marilyn kidding v me; miss the way Aki complain shahidul; miss the way mei shan gia si; miss sze siang said he is not longer my best friend; miss the way florence care me; miss the way lee meng worrying; miss the way poingee speack french to me;miss the way kelvin wondering y i so happy; miss the way my make up teacher call me moli dian zi; miss the way lilo ask me go to c tien sze d?; miss the way tien sze ask me don worry so much; maybe even will miss daniel brought shao bao for me and ask me don so siu hei after i angry him for around one sem. seems like too many things to miss! what will my life be when i training? will i still be happy without my friends, my yoga class, my make up class, my french class, my"online" life?

Going HOme

Yoz, friends... i gonna go home later, damn long nv back to senai d. Abit homesick la. recently feel damn stress, stress for fyp even the presentation was over,stress for the final exam, stress for some stupid classmate(ok..she din give me stress,but really proved tat she is as sui as others said. i should listen to all my friends b4,nv pity on her!!! human like tat wont regret for what she do de!)
Back to the topic, this time i will only come back melaka one week b4 final exam. lolz, friends don miss too much o. i really hope i can relieve my stress when i reach home. hope to see siaw hui's baby, hope to see gu gu's baby. hope to find solution for my fyp, hope to enhance my programing skill asap.too many hope but too litter time. as cp status GrEeN aPpLE { 加油！我一定可以的！FYP } i hope i also can a! and wan say sorry to my cyber friends, i really busy and moodless to contact u all( i m such a bad friend) i hope u all doing well. i love u all!!!Sorry to Florence also, i cant believe i forgot to greet u on ur birthday!!!( nothing is cant believe also la, as i always forgot others birthday) Hope u like the present i gave.And Happy Belated Birthday Florence. hope u can maintain ur cute+sexy image as long as possible. MUAKS

Last Friday went out v my girlfriends keiko and aki, plan to go "gogo" singK. but some unwanted situation appear. we shift ourselves to DP cinema. The movie we watched is

The Other Boleyn Girl (2008)

For me, this is not a bad movie: 3.75 over 5 star!!! at least it was really impress us.

Synopsis: Based on the best selling novel by Philippa Gregory, The Other Boleyn Girl is an engrossing and sensual tale of intrigue, romance, and betrayal set against the backdrop of a defining moment in history. Two sisters, Anne (Natalie Portman) and Mary (Scarlett Johansson) Boleyn, are driven by... Based on the best selling novel by Philippa Gregory, The Other Boleyn Girl is an engrossing and sensual tale of intrigue, romance, and betrayal set against the backdrop of a defining moment in history. Two sisters, Anne (Natalie Portman) and Mary (Scarlett Johansson) Boleyn, are driven by their ambitious father and uncle to advance the family’s power and status by courting the affections of the King of England (Eric Bana). Leaving behind the simplicity of country life, the girls are thrust into the dangerous and thrilling world of court life – and what began as a bid to help their family develops into a ruthless rivalry between Anne and Mary for the love of the king. Initially, Mary wins King Henry’s favor and becomes his mistress, bearing him an illegitimate child. But Anne, clever, conniving, and fearless, edges aside both her sister and Henry’s wife, Queen Katherine of Aragon, in her relentless pursuit of the king. Despite Mary’s genuine feelings for Henry, her sister Anne has her sights set on the ultimate prize; Anne will not stop until she is Queen of England. As the Boleyn girls battle for the love of a king – one driven by ambition, the other by true affection – England is torn apart. Despite the dramatic consequences, the Boleyn girls ultimately find strength and loyalty in each other, and they remain forever connected by their bond as sisters

Plot:When Catherine of Aragon fails to produce a male heir to the British throne, the Duke of Norfolk and his brother in law Thomas Boleyn scheme to install the latter's elder daughter Anne in the court of Henry VIII as the king's mistress and potential mother of his son, thereby furthering their own political ambitions. Their plan backfires when Henry, injured in a hunting accident indirectly precipitated by Anne, is nursed by her sister Mary and becomes smitten with her. With great reluctance, the recently married Mary and her husband William Carey agree to accept positions in the court, knowing full well what will be expected of her. Separated from her spouse, who is sent away on an assignment by the king, Mary finds herself falling in love with Henry.

Rebellious Anne secretly marries betrothed nobleman Henry Percy and confides in her brother George, who tells Mary about the elopement. Concerned that Anne will ruin her reputation by marrying a nobleman without the King's consent, she alerts her father and uncle of the union. They confront Anne, who argues that the marriage has been consummated and what is done before God cannot be undone, and she is exiled to France in disgrace.

The Boleyn family's fortunes seem to be secured when Mary becomes pregnant. When she nearly suffers a miscarriage, she is confined to bed for the remainder of her pregnancy, and Norfolk recalls Anne to England to keep Henry's attention from wandering to another rival, particularly Jane Seymour. Anne successfully embarks on a campaign to seduce Henry, revealing herself to be more sophisticated and accomplished than she was prior to her exile. By withholding her sexual favors, she ensures the king's continued interest, finally making him promise never to bed his wife or speak to her sister in exchange for her giving him hope of eventually possessing her. Anne exacts this promise just after Mary gives birth to the much-anticipated son, making Mary's triumph hollow.

The ambitious Anne encourages Henry to break from the Roman Catholic Church when Pope Clement VII refuses to annul his marriage to Catherine. Henry succumbs to Anne's demands, declares himself the Supreme Governor of the Church of England, and divorces his wife. The scandal of Anne's brief, secret marriage to Henry Percy threatens her forthcoming marriage to the king until Mary, out of loyalty to her family, returns to court and lies on Anne's behalf, assuring Henry her union with Percy never was consummated. Anne weds Henry and becomes Queen of England. The sisters reach a reconciliation and Mary stays by Anne's side at court.

Despite the birth of a healthy daughter, Elizabeth, Henry is unhappy with Anne's failure to deliver a son and legitimate male heir to the throne. After she miscarries their second child, a now desperate Anne asks her brother George to try to impregnate her. Although he ultimately refuses to grant her request, his neglected wife Jane witnesses enough of their encounter to become suspicious. Her testimony leads to the arrest, trial, and execution of both George and Anne. Mary returns to court to plead for her sister's life, but Henry refuses to intercede. He warns Mary never to come to court again, because her family's disgrace could result in danger to her as well. Mary fulfills her last promise to Anne and takes care of her infant daughter.

The closing captions reveal the king need not have been concerned about his failure to produce a legitimate male heir, because his daughter Elizabeth served her country well for forty-five years.

Justice My Ass

Feel the UMNO really stupid after read this email. i m always not a "racing person". as i see my malay friends around me, they don need others help or protect to competition with us, some of them even much more better than me, success is just depend on how hardworking we are. And we all noe that the over protection will only produces "useless genaration". Maybe next time i should not give a single chance to the OMNO again as i realise that they nv "awake"!!!


the email i received
If you love this country you should help circulate this mail to all your friends who are MIC and MCA members, if they are not too busy enriching their own pockets and make future generation of their children, their grand children and their great grand children suffer. For 50 years the Chinese have given their vote to MCA and for 50 years MCA have pass their vote to the Malay, yes Malay in UMNO for a little self benefits. MCA members have no balls to speak for the Chinese and yes MCA in Johor who have NO Balls to speak against the UMNO. Where do you think the Malays come from Indonesia lah and what ever happened to the great Chinese Warriors from Yunan that saved these Malays from Siamese attack called Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat and princess Hang Li Po??, disappears from our children history books that we used to read in our school days (ungrateful UMNO).

Only Raja Petra will speak for the Chinese and the Indian.

PLEASE PASS THIS INFORMATION TO ALL YOUR RELATIVES AND FRIENDS.
KEEP PASSING IT UNTIL A NEW GOVERNMENT TAKES OVER THE COUNTRY.


Subject: Raja Petra says, ' Justice My Ass !! '

Here's ANOTHER Reason NON-Malays Should NOT Vote UMNO in Any Future General Elections and Bye-Elections
Thursday, June 05, 2008
16:39

Read here from M'sians Unplugged ...
Average Non-Malay Malaysians and NON-Malay Bumiputras have LITTLE future for their children and their grandchildren IF they still vote Barisan Nasional which allows UMNO to remain in Government - it was before, it is today, and it will be tomorrow.

Excerpts from article by Raja Petra Kamarudin
by

Raja Petra Kamarudin
'Last month, Umno Johor said that the greatest mistake they made was in giving the non-Malay immigrants citizenship in August 1957. Now that they have been given citizenship they show their ingratitude by voting for the opposition.

Yes, non-Malays, even those born in Malaysia , are immigrants. And, being immigrants, they must vote Barisan Nasional. And if they do not vote for Barisan Nasional then they are ungrateful.

Yes, voting is your right. This is your right according to the Federal Constitution of Malaysia. Malays can vote for whomsoever they would like to vote for because the Constitution allows them to do so. Malays, therefore, can vote for the opposition.

But, if you are non-Malay, then you must vote for Barisan Nasional because you are an immigrant. If you vote for the opposition then you are a traitor, you are ungrateful, and it was a great mistake giving you citizenship in 1957.

Tun Dr Mahathir's father was born in INDIA. But Tun Dr Mahathir can vote opposition. He can even oppose Umno like he is doing so now. In fact, he can even become the Prime Minister. He is not an ungrateful immigrant who should be sent back to India .

Tian Chua, however, can't oppose Umno. Tian Chua, whose family settled in Malaya long before the Portuguese came in 1511, is an immigrant. And if he is not happy and if he opposes Umno then he should go back to Chin a .

And Umno Johor regrets giving Tian Chua citizenship in 1957 but does not regret giving Tun Dr Mahathir citizenship.

Why? Because Tun Dr Mahathir is Muslim while Tian Chua is not.
But if Tian Chua circumcises and takes on the Muslim name of Musa Bin Susah and marries a Malay woman, then he need not go back to Chin a and Umno does not regret giving him citizenship in 1957.

The Malays have a very warped view of justice. Malays practice two standards of justice.
There is one standard for the Malays and another for the non-Malays.

And 90% of the tax is paid by the NON-Malays and 10% by the Malays, says Tun Dr Mahathir.

But 10% of the scholarships must go to the NON-Malays and 90% to the Malays.

And when they propose to change this to 40% for the non-Malays and 60% for the Malays, the Malays raise a hue and cry.
And they call this justice. And they say Islam is about justice.'

JUSTICE MY ASS, MAN !!!!

Why geishas walk with small steps‏

just get an email from friend Rolex. would like to share v u all. may u all hv a nice day

i hope

i hope, when i wake up tomorro, i wont be sad anymore.
i hope, when i wake up tomorro, the news i heard today is just a joke.
i hope, when i wake up tomorro, if tat is not a joke, god pls give me and my dearest friend strength to move on.
i m here to love u and ur litter son friend. be strong

WHY? Sad

just finish my last blog, then receive my ji mui sms. her new born son heart found a pair of holes. suddenly i feel heartbroken, Y? Y? Y? y is him, i start asking myself and god why,and no one answer me at this moment. he is so small, i even hvn go back n see how his looks. and now, i don even want to noe how he looks like, i just wan him to healthy. i feel like crying now,how my friend gonna face it? it is sure tat their future will be taugher than expect. How? How? How? i feel i m lost, even i pretent ok when reply my friend. ask her to cold down, don so sad. where can be not sad de? even i cant contol my emotion now d. i really donnoe wat is can do for them,even donnoe how to walk out from this happend...i need some one to talk to now, or i need sleep a while. i donnoe wat i gonna do. it spoil my weekend.. no...even longer..

Busy week

Wuhuu...Finally, i complete my FYP presentation's slide which i need to present on next friday, and also my antenna assignment which need to pass up on monday. HAPPY..But actually still got alot of things need to complete adhead. tuesday got lab, then need to do lab report, friday present, so need to pratics and try to memorise what i want to say on the presentation.Emi assignment hvn touch yet, continue design my hardware which i should come out atleast one board at the end of this sem and perform lots of tests. After all this, i think is the time to study my Final exam d. After exam need to move house, lolz..move to the place where i belong...HOME..yeah..i going home for my ITP(industrial Training Project). so i will stay at senai around 3 months. Will start training just one week after my final exam.kinda fast. like not enof time for me to rest lei.
come back to the presentation, my modurater is ms kwek lee chong, at 1st i kinda happy to noe she is the one. cos atleast not alan or yong. But after telling this news to my friends, most of them feel pity for me..Y? as what they said, she is not a "cincai" person. so ask me better prepare good good b4 present to her. OMG..i m so scare , i m not a good student as tien sze(my adviser) knew it since i always ask those stupid questions.But LEE CHONG donnoe ei..how? later she expect me very good then how a? she sure dissapointted de. as xiao chyi worried, will i get C for my presentaton?
Worry also useless friends... let us take a deep breath now 1st. "BREATH IN"......(lolz, my yoga classmates will noe wat i talking about)

May all of u have a nice weekend..

My Tools Box

Yesterday went shopping v Miss Mei,damn tired when reach home,from 12pm sth shop untill 9sth
But brought some thing worth to celebrate yet agonized.



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Deng................
The Estee Lauder Make up set

The outer looks of my tools box

Contents of my make up set
1 big tools box, 1 small bag,15 colors eyes shadow, 3 diff co lour blush,3 lips tick, 1 mascara,1 eyeliner pencil,1 liquid eyeliner,4 brushes, 1 eyebrow pencil,1 liquid foundation,100ml make up remover

worth celebrating cos i finally have my own complete make up set which i should having from the beginning of the make up class. My teacher keep bising about it d. Beside that, the value of this complete set is really AMAZE me ..RM1440.00 OMG...but now i own this set with only RM480.00 ... damn cheap . ok, maybe i should not use the word cheap as i still a student..DAMN WORTH may be better...


But own this make up set also agonizing me.
erm... is agonizing my pocket since spended more than RM550 on the 1st day of sept. My pocket money from parent for this month totally gone, and orcoding from my usual finalcial plan.which spend around RM1000 per month will be spoil. This month may be hit THE TARGET Rm 1500. Really cant accept myself spend like this. I tot only Britney Chong can make it, i don wish to follow his step although he is my BEST Friend. Haiz...


Now,what i can comfirm is i had move further 1 step from my DSLR camera again.*_*

The best is yet to come

When i was small, i felt MJ is a very funny and "ah gua" pop star. And always wonder why there were so many supporters crazy about him. Until one day i watched his concert performance dvd at a supermarket. Suddenly my heart was melting...me and my sis stood there donnoe for how long. we two really attracted by his performance..powerful yet touching. and we cant help recall the scene of the concert although after long time.From tat moment, i found out the reason he become so famous .MJ---the POP KING FORVER

Michael Jackson optimistic at 50, says 'The best is yet to come'

NEW YORK - Michael Jackson celebrated his 50th birthday Friday but he's still young at heart.

"I'll just have a little cake with my children and we'll probably watch some cartoons," the pop star said in an interview with ABC News' "Good Morning America." Jackson talked by phone with ABC on Thursday.

Jackson, a twice-divorced father of three, said he aims to provide a normal life for his children.

"I am letting them enjoy their childhood as much as possible. . . . I let them go to the arcade and go to the movies and do things. I think that comes naturally. I want them to get to do things I didn't get to do," he said.

"I get pretty emotional when I see them having a wonderful time," he said.

As for his career, Jackson said he's "looking forward to doing a lot of great things. . . . I think the best is yet to come in my true humble opinion."

He said recording the blockbuster albums "Thriller" and "Off the Wall" were the happiest times of his life.

"That meant very much to me and seemed to be received so beautifully by the public and the world. You know, I enjoyed it very much," he said.

Here is my favorite song of him. i cant found the video that melted me last time. But still hope u ll enjoy it

I m here

Today, i decided to start my blog at here. Nothing much to say now,since both my body and mind are damn tired..soon abd later i will explain the reason. stay tuned...